Happiness after Horror
Twenty one years after her birth on December 8th 1963 , Virginia Thompson took her first steps in her forever changing and new world. Graduating from High School, her story begins as she steps into the world of college and independence, where lessons begin to be learned. Unfortunately, her first steps soon turned into stumbles as a downward spiral of obstacles challenged her to face the true world, and find happiness buried beneath its rigid surface.
Within the first year of college, Virginia met a handsome and very persuading man whom convinced her she had found true romance, and true bliss. This resulted in her first born, Craig. Craig was a beautiful baby boy, and even through the beginning chaos of freshmen studies, he was the most spectacular and most precious baby she had ever held- and with this, motherhood began. Though a determined student throughout high school, her grades began to drop and she attended less and less of her classes as she stayed at home to watch her child. Her previous dreams that held visions of a successful career and simplistic life began to disappear frantically as each sleepless night passed her by. Within the next five or six years, not only had she stopped going to college, but soon gave birth to two more children; Cole, who was born in 1990 and Courtney born the following year after.
By this time, Virginia had moved into her first house, unemployed, and became a full time a stay at home mom with three newborns. Her nights were long, and the love her children, being the only thing keeping her on her feet at the end of a dreadful week. The father of her children, still around and still holding her under his convincing words of so called love, purposed to her to live their lives together. With an innocent and naive heart, she said yes with out much thought, unaware of her commitment also, to his hidden drug addiction.
By 1984, the couple was married, and already moved into their second home.Virginia ’s heart, however, was filled with much confusion. Coming out of college, she had been aware of him casually smoking marijuana, fore it was common among their age group and it was to be expected. However, as they grew older, Virginia realized the idea of addiction forming within her husband. He became distant, very easily anxious, and began to hide his usage of pot as they began to live miserable and separate lives. Her worries began to slowly grow into anger, as his addiction pulled the family apart. Constant fighting fled through the walls of the house causing tension through the innocence of the children, and an ongoing growth of a beautiful family turning into a damaged household. The children grew cautious and confused, and she felt trapped in a world of lies and guilt.
By 1984, the couple was married, and already moved into their second home.
Her angered tears overtime turned her into a person of saddened visions, built up anger, and a woman filled of only disappointment. However, still young and still full with life, Virginia believed full heartily she could change her husband, make him a better father and less of an addict.
However, Virginia was alone in this belief. Her mother, full of discomfort toward her husband, would constantly comment, and question, “When are you going to get rid of that Asshole?” Rage filled within every word. Not only had her husband began to come between their immediate family, but now began to out reach to her other loved ones as well. Her friends, also, would subtlety point out his problems that were not compatible with raising a family, just as commonly. Her world began to spin to the point where she was not aware of what was right or wrong, and the only hope she held on to was for the aspiring love for her children.
So, this did not stop her strongest of efforts to confront her husband and convince him to change, therefore she told him of her concerns, her worries, and her stress. Yet, as others had predicted this led to only more conflict and loathing. She began to force him to get help and counseling, her voice becoming more of a stranger as she screamed at him through each painstaking night, until he would finally give in and stop his horrid addiction... However, this neglect of his addiction would only last a few years, until the process of this ugly event would repeat itself over and over. He would gradually begin to smoke behind her back, each and every time he would have claimed to stop, he would care hesitantly towards his children, and over and over again continue to disappoint as a worthy husband and father. This was, wistfully, the only life she knew.
It wasn’t until 2005, as her first born son was away inIraq , did life, or even a higher power, send her an event to waken her from her hypnotic repetition of a life. One evening, a skip in the record player of her repetitive night, sent a chaotic crisis event into her world. Unexpectedly, on July forth, as the fireworks of rainbow showers exploded above, her husband began to cringe in pain from not one, but two menacing heart attaches, in which created a living nightmare on an evening of celebration.
Months later, he lay in a hospital bed with even more health deficiencies concluding from his usage of marijuana. As she stood watching him in inevitable pain, helpless to his addiction,Virginia came to her first clear thought in many years… This was not the life, she wanted to be living. She was angry with this life, or rather, the life she gave up and continued to sacrifice for this man. He would always need her to care for him and his addiction; yet he is supposed to care for their children, and care for her with love, in which he did neither.
In 2006, as she turned forty, she knew that she could not fool herself anymore, and needed to make a change. It was that year; the downward spiral came to its long awaited end. Her first movement towards resurfacing herself began when she filed for a divorce. The divorce had been a struggle to fight for her happiness, and dread over her children, however it concluded in a world worth fighting for. The children, of course were conflicted, yet they were old enough to see the truth hidden in the lie beneath the very thin surface of their life. So, they stood along side their mother as she fought against this world for what she knew she and her children deserved.
So, this did not stop her strongest of efforts to confront her husband and convince him to change, therefore she told him of her concerns, her worries, and her stress. Yet, as others had predicted this led to only more conflict and loathing. She began to force him to get help and counseling, her voice becoming more of a stranger as she screamed at him through each painstaking night, until he would finally give in and stop his horrid addiction... However, this neglect of his addiction would only last a few years, until the process of this ugly event would repeat itself over and over. He would gradually begin to smoke behind her back, each and every time he would have claimed to stop, he would care hesitantly towards his children, and over and over again continue to disappoint as a worthy husband and father. This was, wistfully, the only life she knew.
It wasn’t until 2005, as her first born son was away in
Months later, he lay in a hospital bed with even more health deficiencies concluding from his usage of marijuana. As she stood watching him in inevitable pain, helpless to his addiction,
In 2006, as she turned forty, she knew that she could not fool herself anymore, and needed to make a change. It was that year; the downward spiral came to its long awaited end. Her first movement towards resurfacing herself began when she filed for a divorce. The divorce had been a struggle to fight for her happiness, and dread over her children, however it concluded in a world worth fighting for. The children, of course were conflicted, yet they were old enough to see the truth hidden in the lie beneath the very thin surface of their life. So, they stood along side their mother as she fought against this world for what she knew she and her children deserved.
Soon after, she went back to college, and began a new adventure into the life she in the end, truly had wished to live many years before. As she took up a new job, and gathered up the money to support her remaining children in school, she fought through the hardships of being a single mother in a failing economy. Her sometimes multiple jobs and school kept her busy during the day, and her mid to early aged teenagers at home kept her on her feet till the darkest times of the night. This once wistful life she had led before became almost intoxicating with excitement and new challenges each day that she faced with ambition.
After fighting the divorce and war of realization of a horrid life, she overcame the denial and the once fear of embarrassment to start anew. This achievement brought strength to her fragile bones. As she took up school, she began to get the education she had always dreamed of and the confidence towards the world around her that she always needed. Resulting in her becoming more social and trusting of the people around her, creating a more humble and stable being with an environment of loving friends to support her on her utmost sorrowful days.
By surrounding herself in an expanding community of college and new aspiring students such as herself, they began to teach her to be more open towards acquaintances and “see people through rose colored pedals” , thus filling her bitter grown heart with its long awaited reunion with purity and kindness. She began to see the anew, and ever so slowly, a smile once again grew to find comfort upon her face.
In 2010, she graduated from college a new person, with all new hopes and dreams she never thought she could have been possible to strive towards before. Virginia also had began dating again, and in the mix found another man in search of any sign of true and pure romantic love still left in this world of deception. Together they found innocence, hope, and real love, something both had longed for, for many years and the more time spent together, the more they began to see that the world is not of deception but rather of challenges each one of us must fight through, to find the true bliss at the end of the each long and nearly forbidden trek that awaits each individual.
By surrounding herself in an expanding community of college and new aspiring students such as herself, they began to teach her to be more open towards acquaintances and “see people through rose colored pedals” , thus filling her bitter grown heart with its long awaited reunion with purity and kindness. She began to see the anew, and ever so slowly, a smile once again grew to find comfort upon her face.
In 2010, she graduated from college a new person, with all new hopes and dreams she never thought she could have been possible to strive towards before. Virginia also had began dating again, and in the mix found another man in search of any sign of true and pure romantic love still left in this world of deception. Together they found innocence, hope, and real love, something both had longed for, for many years and the more time spent together, the more they began to see that the world is not of deception but rather of challenges each one of us must fight through, to find the true bliss at the end of the each long and nearly forbidden trek that awaits each individual.